happy & crazy...

disappointment

2011-10-25T11:51:00.001+08:00

this yr i admit im such a dissappoinment. i didnt know all would crash down on me although im trying to be as positive. im 25 but i still cant make up decisions. such a loser. watever it is, i should think about others.

2011

2011-07-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

2011 life ....

there's too many things that happen

i'm 25 still looking forward to my holidays :)

2011

2011-02-20T18:07:00.003+08:00

been very long though, coz im busy with things nothing much. well after graduation here n there. am starting my new job on 14 march, library officer. for now, am gonna enjoy the days at home cause when you work, you gonna miss home much. Cant wait for the first pay, shopping and all. by june/may, gucci, burberry pls let me have you. till then :)

hellloooo all

2010-06-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

tmr's my 24th birthday ! cant wait...hehe....sori for not updating...dun find anything interesting in life though...monday my first day of work ! $$$$ roollling in...yeahoooo...and rafael's coming again for abg jamal's wedding ! :P

graduated !

2010-03-30T20:55:00.003+08:00

and i've officially graduated from poly ! woohoooo
excellent grades for me....4B+ n 1B !

Im so happy...finally, i've made it :)

graduation ceremony on 13 may at 1.30pm

the email : Dear NUR LIYANA BTE MD YUSOOF,

Congratulations! According to our records, you have fulfilled all graduation criteria for your Diploma in Customer Relationship and Service Management in AY0910 Semester 2

commentsss

2010-02-09T19:47:00.002+08:00

continued:

Service Management Faci comments:

Thanks for sharing your final RJ, Yana !
Glad that you've enjoyed and benefitted from this module.
Good participation in class discussions. Confident presentation of EOQ.
Glad to have you in class - stay cheerful ! Wishing you all the best in the next important phase of your life. Keep in touch !

Now, I'm very worried I won't get a job...Hopefully there's opportunity for me :)

last days in RP

2010-02-05T12:54:00.002+08:00

yest was my last day of school in RP...

memories were meant to last...im sure gonna miss all the times I had there...

these are my comments from my facilitators :

CMA FACI :

Hi Liyana,
It's always a joy to have students like you to make the class filled with a rainbow of colours. I really wish you all the best and hope you have learnt much from your time in RP and appreciate CRM as well as EQ.
Thank you for the invaluable feedback which will help shape my reflection.
It's a joy to have you in class for these semesters. Thank you :-)

Retail Mgmt Faci :
Liyana, indeed you did well for UT2 and it can only get better with more preparations done. Daily grades were mostly consistent and your ability to constantly verbalise your thoughts in discussions showed you were confident of your abilities. All the best for UT3.

P/S: So sweet...will update on the other module faci comments :)

handsome cousin

2010-02-01T12:05:00.004+08:00

when he came down, we spend our time together...families and cousins

fri - morn (spore zoo) nite (spore flyer, newton food centre)
sat - parttying at zouk,phuture
sun - sentosa, luge & skyride, west coast
mon - bugis

he just melts me...

let's begin :)

Us with the kids (feeling2)

(me n him) awwwww

anis,rafael n yana

btw, he said he'll be coming down again in june to celebrate my bday and abg jamal's wedding...omg so excited ! :)

national geographic

2010-01-21T15:26:00.005+08:00

went to national geographic store at Vivo city with the class...

cool...never been to the store before...tried the freezing chamber...i like it...

1min for 1 dlr

hehe...btw, handsome cousin came down on tuesday...can't wait to go out with them on sat ! party !!

(inside the freezing chamber)

(smiling to myself)

first wedding for 2010

2010-01-11T19:41:00.002+08:00

tis sat will be attending my sec's school friend wedding...woah...all grown up...

school been bus for me...fyp dedaline tis fri...cant wait for all to be done with...

cousin from germany arriving on 19 jan...

after grad, working...go shopping,new hp, and everything else :)

HAPPY nEW Year

2010-01-01T03:34:00.003+08:00

happy 2010 to everyone...

may all ur wishes come true...your life be blissful & prosperous...

Im looking forward to graduation...yiippie

our movie dAte

2009-12-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

had our movie with my cousins...7 of them like below 15..hahaha

watched avatar...quite nice

i lioke the avatar...hehe...cool

btw, happy 8 yrs anniversary :)

here's my cousin with our 8 tickets....

ipod touch

2009-11-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

yeah my wish was granted...

yest went for family dinner...told dad that i wanted ipod...then he asked what's it for...i told him everything...i went to survey and check the prices there...

today, i came back...my sis showed, i saw the plastic and inside was Ipod touch...

i screamed like mad ! wohoooo

damn happy :)

next, blackberry for me :P

needs & wants

2009-10-27T22:23:00.002+08:00

had a most hilarious laugh wif my uncle jus now...blackberry la...not blueberry ok ! he laughed at himself for saying blueberry ! hahaha...

well, im gonna save up for ipod touch...or maybe someone will get it for me ? hehe...

we'll see how it goes...

my wishlist: ipod touch
blackberry

p/s: thanx for those wanting to contribute to the items ABOVE ! HAHAHA

selamat hari raya 09

2009-09-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

selamat hari raya all... everything's well...including my results... left 1 more sem to go... im proud of it...

(close cousin)

(all grown up)

selamat berpuasa

2009-08-21T22:44:00.001+08:00

selamat berpuasa...

btw, hapi 92mths !

you know who you are :)

so touched :)

2009-08-20T12:18:00.003+08:00

well im so touched with comments from my facis...hehe

Below are 3 comments

Dear Liyana,

You have been one of my favourite students in this class. This is because you are very helpful to your friends. You also contribute to team and class discussions most of the time. I wish the rest of the class can be as calm as you when the problem is difficult. Never once did I hear any complaints from you and you took challenges in your stride. Definitely one of the 'special A' student. :)

I guess taking the long route to enter poly has its advantages. I can see that you are patient and also very hardworking, treasuring every moment you have in RP.

I am sure you will succeed in life. Do not forget me when you do ok?

Moving forward, I would hope that you will find true meaning in life and be really happy with whatever you have eventually. Whether or not you attain your goals as set in the RJ, I sincerely wish that you will remain a confident and positive person.

Thanks for your contribution in class, and I am sure you will excel in your future endeavours. Thanks for having faith in me to be your guidance.

You really gave a nice RJ to end the semester.

Hi Liyana,

Wow, we've been in class for 2 semesters now? You are such a joy to have in class. With your presence, it does brighten up the class.

Dear Liyana

Good work in the day. A cheerful and natural leader who sets good examples for the class. Continue to do your best for the next Semester and push yourself harder. I noted that you do not speak in class as much even though you can articulate well and is an extroverted person. Moving forward, do put in more efforts to push yourself out of the comfort zone. I do think that you have are more than ready to do that.

last day of school

2009-08-18T15:43:00.000+08:00

yesh ah...today marks the last day of school ! 1 more semester to go...well, this fri CCO test then mon ACM test & PR test on tue...im gonna make it ok ! haha...

5 weeks of holidays ! im loving it...till we meet again people :P

back from KL

2009-08-11T11:11:00.002+08:00

so here I am back in spore...body aches...here n there...

went to KL from 8 aug till yest night...no mood to go to class...

took lots of pics...will upload in facebook ya !

well...left with 1 more semester to go...but then, tmr is the big day ! fyp assesstment ! wish me luck :)

prezzie !

2009-07-23T10:15:00.003+08:00

yeah finally got my present from bf...like on monday !

digicam for me...weee...sony cybershot...btw, got my bursary...super duper weeeee....shall be more careful in my spending...

bell's palsy

2009-07-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

let me tell u a story...

was having migraine wed the whole day...eat medicine then sleep...next morning woke up and realised something's wrong with my face...ignored it...but still told my uncle on the friday we went out for late night grocery shopping...

yest...after wedding, asked my aunty who's a nurse...then she was very worried...she said maybe i had stroke...cause i couldn't control my mouth when drinking water and it drools...my eyes were very blur...when i laugh n talked...my face would only move the right side.

i was very sacred and cried...my relative consoled me to go Alexandra Hosp..A&E so on the way i criedd n cried...was thinking about my future everything...

then the doctor says it might take up to 9mths to recover...i was suffering bell's palsy...which means my left side of my face the nerve system was weak...

today went for tradisional way of rcovery...even he said it takes time...the main thing for me is to have a peace mind...no stress at all...

so here i am...hoping to recover soon...god's willing...

23rd birthday

2009-06-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

omg ! im 23 as of now...time really flies...hope all goes well for my birthday plans...gonna post it again...see ya...

P/S: I LOVE YOU

pinky shoe

2009-06-16T19:13:00.003+08:00

yea...went dinner with mum at Lot 1...was walking past Royal Sporting House when I saw Reebok shoe on sale...so I told mum...then she asked if I want...of course ! haha...since I'm gonna slim down a bit..mcm paham la sei !! hahaha...ok...with this new shoe I'll have more motivation to work harder :)

let's take a look....

eh2 mcm mcdonald...haha

ok...couting down to my 23rd bday....left with 11 more days...presents ok! hahaha

wedding dinner

2009-06-13T18:39:00.002+08:00

yeah received my first ever chinese wedding invitation card...cant wait to go...

now what shall i wear? thinking of buying a dress...

my first ever chinese wedding experience...gonna be a blast !

details: 18 july 2009, novotel hotel

bringing along bf...gonna sit with the same table with ex colleagues n boss :P

i can do it

2009-06-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

i told myself i can do it...

no matter what...

looking towards a positive mindset

emptiness

2009-05-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

how do you feel when someone you loved went far...

how do you feel when this 7yrs plus relationship is going on nothing...you and I just leading our own lives...pretending to be in love when it wasn't there anymore...wish we had more time for each other and communication...do you ever realise it...do you...

HOLIDAYS

2009-05-25T23:28:00.001+08:00

I'm so excited for holidays with the girls...dec...

pls make my wish come true...

i wanna enjoy myself...

http://www.panubainn.com

nice rite...ouh i can't wait !!!

mad at you

2009-05-21T14:07:00.001+08:00

problem, problems and problems

mad for nothing....

i want to go to sleep MAD at you...

mothers day

2009-05-10T22:42:00.003+08:00

happy mothers day....

i want to be free

2009-05-02T22:46:00.005+08:00

well so much for being an adult...i think we are just strangers living in a world of our own...

went to sentosa today...took my mind off those problems...

colourful ain't it ! i wish my life was like that...

enjoying my delicious ice kacang...

well at least for that moment, i didn't think of anything...

someone, pls take me away...

im a fool

2009-04-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

ok...im such a fool !

i booked my btt...which is like...once u passed, its for life !! i've passed it like duh !

now...i have to book ftt coz the current 1 gonna expire but only after that, i can book...

n i have wasted 6dlrs for the unnecessary btt !!

im such a fool !! im mad at myself !!

3rd failure

2009-04-28T12:21:00.001+08:00

im such a loser...

i hate this...

maybe...im just better being a passenger...

wish me luck

2009-04-27T22:28:00.003+08:00

i will make it...

i will do it...

the big day has come...

wish me luck...

dear god...give me the blessings and i will go thru it with patience

hapi 88mths

2009-04-21T21:50:00.001+08:00

dear bf,

happy 88mths...

aku cinta padamu...

school timetable

2009-04-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

yea...mon n wed off days...meaning i have 3 days of school ! yippieee...but have to come for FYP meeting 1 of the 2 off days...hehe...gosh, 3rd yr man...so fast...n my test is also round the corner ! i hope i can pass ! wish me luck ! :)

can't wait

2009-04-07T22:30:00.001+08:00

well...bf asked me what brand watch i wanted for my 23rd bday ! well...im very excited...seems like my wish gonna come true !!! weeeeeeeee...though my bday is 27 june...hahaha...i'll keep imagining and looking the watch i want ! i don't care...

watched cepat-tepat just now...very funny and cute la this boy from yck pri...chubby2 !

wooo...south view was champion...my ex-pri school !! im proud of it !!

23rd BDAY PLS COME QUICK !!!

yeah...2 more wks

2009-04-04T00:07:00.005+08:00

gosh...20 apr back to school...well time really flies...i hope i can get through with it...well today lepak session again with the rest...wdlds for today...last wk was cck...had a lot of catching up...gossips here n there...well laughters were heard...kind of miss those ite days...haha...guess each of us was moving on with life...some engaged...some married...well me, gonna be in 3rd yr of my study...my final year...oh ya...thinking what shld i wear to a chinese wedding dinner...

maybe something nice,sweet & simple...

loveeee

2009-03-29T23:48:00.004+08:00

i've got a new found love...his name is...muhd raiyan...i love him tat i love to smell n suck his pacifier...hahaha....gotta show u his pics...

he's cute

yea...before i end...i have this wish...i wanna pass...n i wanna have a new hp & watch !

and why

2009-03-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

oh damn...i feel like crying everytime i think of it...why and why...must it happen to us...after all this 7yrs plus...i wanted to be happy with you...but when i think of it...i'm just into tears and frustration...it's not fair...

dead and gone...

movie dates

2009-03-18T21:12:00.002+08:00

tomorrow gonna be on movie dates with 7 other people: aunt,sis,5 other small cousins(RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN)..been on 2 movie dates this wk...mon: (COMING SOON wif bf)...gonna spend their holidays watching movie since i had nothing to do..always wining boring here n there...gonna be 1 more mth till school re-opens...yeah had a damn long holidays u know...hehe...but still...time really flies...

p/s: i can't wait for our night out together !

sanggupkah kau bersabar sayang...

2009-03-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

was thinking and guess is the best song from him to me...

Sanggupkah kau bersabar sayang...

sorry ya...malay song...

dear god...let us go thru this relationship with full of patience and love between us...

sacrifice ?

2009-03-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

been thinking what my friends say...i have to sacrifice for you...yeah...i hate doing that...im just selfish...i want you n me alone...having our moments together...how i wish we were not having the problems lately...yeah i hate to admit that...why is it me going thru this...the obstacles & challenges along the way...how i hate to admit that after the 7 yrs plus long relationship...i realise you are the one for me...my everything...but sacrifices? why...
i love you so much that i hate thinking abt the problems anymore...can we just move on with the happiness we used to have?

P/S: i love you

haiz

2009-02-26T18:06:00.003+08:00

fail again...geram la sei...haha...16 pts ok but 1 immediate failure...if not...i would surely have passed ! damn...ok will try again...u can do it !

(amcm cute kan !) hahaha

results

2009-02-23T20:18:00.003+08:00

results were out at 10am...had some problems...however, praba helped me check...was satisfied with it...dropped in gpa by 0.04 from last sem...however, im still happy ! congrats yana...you can do it and finally grad from poly in 2010...i was be the most happiest person...achieving this diploma in hand....

:)

holidays yet again

2009-02-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

ok parents went KL again this aft...will be back sun...woah...quit long man...wondering wat i shld do...other than housework ! met bf ard 4 plus to go makan at NEBO, AMK Hub...yummy...the food very delicious ! u shld try ! haha...n the desserts...mmmmmmmmmmmm.....jalan2...now waiting for the washing machine to finish then hang laundry ok...im a gd girl !

when i was young

2009-02-12T21:18:00.002+08:00

gosh ! i suddenly miss my younger days...back in secondary school & ITE days...i actually uploaded some photos to facebook...haha...many funny comments...and i LOL while scanning & uploading the pics...i was quite slim ok ! than now...fat & ugly...many funny c0mments but i was happy today looking back at all the old memories...you can see more in my facebook...but nvm, i jus missed the old days...can i lose half of my weight ?!!!! what do you think ???

those were the days....

movie...

2009-02-10T20:06:00.003+08:00

finally after so long...i got to watch movie(bride wars). yea...today was free...so woke up ard 10am to accompany bf go JB, Larkin...went market..has our lunch there...n caught the movie at 3.30...can say they were very gorgeous...everything about them was nice,beauty n flawless.... love them...when can i be like them ?!!!

yea...i want a huge diamond ring ok ! hahaha...

first ex-bf

2009-02-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

i was talking with one of my classmates...when i saw him...him ! after so many freaking yrs...i looked at him...n he looked at me....then he walked away to the back of the train...my heart was pounding...guess he would have said this in his heart...fat girl ! haha...think ive grown way too much after those 7 yrs...he would have been shocked too see me in this new state...but nvm...we've got nothing to do with each other anymore....but i still remember my first love...first love...the painful experience i been thru...the tears i've cried for you...and the heartbreaking moments...

but...im glad i've moved on...im happier right now...mcm paham jek !

thankx for the memories...n i love you...fadhil iskandar

1st day

2009-02-03T20:09:00.002+08:00

wah...very tiring & body aching...the attachment kind of sux...like wat the hell....jus couldnt wait for everything to be over ! i wish it will be done soon...even the nyonya nak carik pasal...staring one kind...what kind of service is that ?

whatever la...praying i do my best...

muacks

seoul garden

2009-01-27T23:53:00.003+08:00

gong xi fa cai people... n long hols for me...

sun went to sembawang park for some family bbq...reached home at 1.30 am...oh my god...so late !

mon : went nenek house...which is only at 2nd storey..haha...normal routine...slack n went home

today: went seoul garden with bf...n his friend...later lepak2 wif 2 other of his friends...back home now...ard 11 plus...took some pics since we hardly take pics...it's always the same old thing...haha

HALF HIM & ME ...haha

OKLA TU !

THIS IS CONSIDERED NICE BUT HE PURPOSELY SPOILED IT !

EAT AGAIN !

holidays are here...

2009-01-22T20:42:00.004+08:00

yeah countdown to tmr's last day of school...gonna be on a long break...10weeks break...wooo...slacking my time at home today...tmr gonna attend the last class of Year 2...so looking forward to a better future...

here are some random pics...

DANISH AKA THE CUTE BOY

RAIYAN & FATEHA ... SEE THEIR BIG EYES

NABILAH, FATEHA & QISTINA GOING FOR RELIGIOUS CLASS

I HOPE THINGS WILL BE BETTER FOR US !

what's left of me...

2009-01-21T15:23:00.004+08:00

LOOKING BACK, I SHOULDN'T HAVE TOLD U EVERYTHING...

I REGRETTED EVERYTHING...

THINKING BACK...WE CAN NEVER BE HAPPY TOGETHER WITH MY PAST...

I'M SORRY...I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE...

His 24th Bday

2009-01-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY, FADHIL ISKANDAR BIN HARON !

WISHING YOU THE BEST OF HEALTH & LOTS OF LOVE FOR ME !

THANX FOR THE DINNER YEST...

GONNA BE MORE ON YOUR BDAY ITSELF...

I LOVE YOU

3 more days ?

2009-01-16T20:53:00.005+08:00

IQT babes...(not in pic NANA & FIZAH)

Grabbed from ili's friendster

ok grabbed 1 pic from ili's friendster...her wedding pics with us ok ! like from nov till now...hahaha...parents going KL tmr super duper early morning...planned out my day...sleep late...gonna watch vcds...wake up like nobody's business...haha...

btw, Bf bday on monday...hmmm...what should i wear ?

advanced bday gift?

2009-01-13T20:05:00.006+08:00

Okay...went Lot 1 with mum, Qistina n sis...looking for new wallet when mum said she saw this nice wallet..BONIA...dun like the brand la...so i went to look for Santa Barbara Polo wallet...haha got it...nice...but quite ex for mum to buy for me la...was 75 bucks...but she said ok...advanced bday gift which is like in JUNE my bday...hahaha...nvm...still have 20% disc...final price 60bucks...yeah...mum very generous today ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..btw, THANKS MUM !

thannks

2009-01-10T21:34:00.004+08:00

I'm happy...when mum gave the greenlight...i'm so delighted...only god knows how i feel...thank u family & bf...for being there...

never felt this happy before...

I pray that we will be together till eternity...be strong in going thru this evergrowing relationship :)

I Love You...Fadhil Iskandar Bin Haron

marriage?

2009-01-07T09:24:00.004+08:00

well, mum was very2222222222222222 random yest ! was talking abt her friend's daughter tat someone askin for her hand in marriage. then !!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUM : WHEN UR BF GONNA ASK FOR UR HAND IN MARRIAGE?

ME(SHOCKED ! ) : WHEN I WORK...BF ONLY IN 3RD YR POLY...SO RELAX LA...

MUM: U THINK IM SO EVIL IS IT ? I GIVE UR BF TIME TO SAVE MONEY LAA...

ME(OVER THE MOON...SMILING TO MYSELF) : AH OK...

told bf abt it...he's reaction...like usual...normal....

for me : over the mmooonnn laaaa...thanx mum...she understandss me well !

I LOVE MUM !!!

Happy New Year...2009

2008-12-31T23:25:00.009+08:00

Happy new year to all....Here comes 2009

Wishing all in the best of health & happiness..

Here's from us...

IN pic : My sis(Fizah), Qistina(cousin) & Me

last but not least,I'm still holding on...making it work...

7yrs....& still going.....I Love You

1 engagement , 1 wedding

2008-12-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

today was a busy day for me...woke up...hang the laundry...after that slack n watched Friends at Star World...alone laughing to myself...nurul called...met her at UT 3.30 to go to Dayah's Engagement...woah...one by one ending the SINGLEhood but Not Me !! haha...then sat and waited for gerene...went off abt 6...then waited for BF at yishun...waited n waited n finally he came...went off to his ex-classmate Wedding Dinner...sat, ate and ate...then his friends asked me this qns : SO WHEN U & FADHIL'S TURN ? I REPLIED: I DUNNNO....WILL BE LONG WAY TO GO...
so there goes my sat...

I'm trying to hold on...believing in everything...

7yrs anniversary

2008-12-24T09:54:00.002+08:00

it's late but then i got sick...however, Happy 7yrs anniversary...may we be together till eternity & be strong... I Love You...nope...there's no celebration just wishes...wanna know why? because both of us are on tight budget ! hahaha...

PP PASSED

2008-12-17T11:19:00.001+08:00

GD NEWS ALL !

I PASSED PP !

CAN FORGET ABOUT IT & MOVE ON...

I'M HAPPY & NOT HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME...

say it isn't so

2008-12-16T00:28:00.004+08:00

oh well, thank u...u hurt me...how can we ever understand each other...u rather be quiet than talking to me...just talk to me...how should i ever understand you...i need to know...i didn't know i was that bad...i like to nag...but then.. i wanted to talk to you...u said u rather keep it to yourself...but who am i to you after all this years...where did our communication go to... and this is for you....

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go

P/S: So say it isn't so

Re-assessment

2008-12-10T11:05:00.003+08:00

whewww...I'm glad it's over...jus went for my pp re-assessment...there's positive comments & negative too...but don't want to be too confident...hopefully all goes well...

I WANT TO PASS PP!!!

Movida rocks !!

2008-12-07T22:28:00.006+08:00

MOVIDA 06/12/08

Totally amazing & FUN ! I love my ladies...i hope to go out with you ladies again...I simply adore & love them...yeap just the 4 of us went...but then we enjoyed ourselves...FUN ! EXCITING !

I LOVE MY FRIENDS !

Bf, sux big time..

2008-11-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

FADHIL ISKANDAR BIN HARON !

YOU SUCKS BIG TIME !

I HOPE YOU READ THIS ENTRY !!!

P/S: GERAM NAK MAMPOS...SOOOOO IRRITATING !!

holidays are here yet again...

2008-11-27T20:25:00.005+08:00

i seriously can't wait for the upcoming holidays...13 dec onwards till nxt yr...3wks...i'm gonna work and earn those $$$$...yeah...im sure goNna do that...meanwhile, having difficulties right now...mind not thinking straight...cant wait for next wk...i so gonna mit my beloved GF...i miss them...i seriously us back then...no worries...just party hard...but...i know my limits aite...

Counting down to 7yrs anniversary...

83mths

2008-11-21T11:02:00.003+08:00

Hapy 83mths...

there's more to come in the future...awaiting patiently...i hope so

I'll be a good Girlfriend someday !!!

weddings

2008-11-09T21:43:00.001+08:00

I love weddings...attended an ex-classmate from ITE...she's very gorgeous...sat 1 table with the rest of the girls...laughed non-stop...hehe...attended 2 weddings today...gosh...i love to attend them...the atmosphere u can feel it...wonder what mine will be like...hmm....the dais was looking very outstanding...i love it...i can imagine myself picturing my own wedding...just imagine ok...nothing else...it makes me happy to see 2 people settling down...just happy !

this feeling

2008-11-03T20:58:00.005+08:00

this feeling i have inside of me...kind of makes me wonder...where's the sense of love and security we had together...its been long gone...or maybe i didn't realize it was there all along...did we took the wrong step or our feelings are just too hard to say it all out...im left with the loneliness and our memories...i want it all back...back from where we started...i missed our old times...laughter & u being the reason for me to smile...i just cant face other people...it's full of jealousy....

i hate all of this...let's start from the beginning shall we ?

PP ah !

2008-10-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

2 more days to PP assessment day...9am...wah super early...gd luck !!! 1 wk holidays right now...just slacking at home...doing nothing...bf's dad recently had stroke...but now slightly better...today he's discharged..weee...well, long time never went shopping...but wat to do...not enuf income for myself...haha...ouh ya...hari raya gonna end soon...aniway, happy deepavali which is yest...haha...

P/S I LOVE YOU

TP

2008-10-17T17:14:00.004+08:00

well, today start off ok with prac...aniway, i FAILED my TP...ya rite...the experience was @$#!%@%@...watever..booked for my nxt tp...now i know my mistakes n will try to improve on them...now gonna concentrate on my PP poster...havent started...but will start ASAP....so busy nowadays...so many things to do...n stressed ! even someone's giving me a hard time...don feel like talking abt it...useless to say it 1000X of times...never listens to me!

P/S: I'LL be Loving You Long Time....

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-10-02T21:32:00.006+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya ! Maaf Zahir & Batin !

cucu nenek...da 'older' ones...

family wif grandparents (mum's side) (dad not ard...sleeping at home...working night shift)

sis,anis & me (kathy not ard...da tunang la kan...hehe)

me wif green packets ! i lioke !!!

nenek's cucuS !

me & sis...

yana & anis !

family...(dad not around)

Complete family pic...with granddad(father's side)

p/s: Selamat Hari Raya...loves :)

mthsary...

2008-09-21T01:38:00.002+08:00

back from geylang...damn tired...gonna go to sleep soon...its 2am...reached hommie at 1am...geylang freaks ah...got to shop here n there with mum...preparing for raya...weeeeee.....aniway goona wish bf hapy 6yrs 9tmhs anniversary...love u !

p/s: hoping for a miracle to happen to both of us...treasure this relationship that we have and looking forward to building our future :)

5day...

2008-09-19T11:43:00.006+08:00

this legs are made for walking...ya rite...this whole wk been going out...meeting friends...

1. tues breakfast at JB...

2. wed meet fizah & mas...

3. thurs go geylang wif bf...

4. today is rest day...

5. sat will be going Geylang again wif family...total will be 20 pple...cousin gonna drive van/lorry for us...im sooo looking forward to HARI RAYA :p

as promised, the pics from bro's graduation parade !

tat's all...dun have many pics...jus select the best only...

p/s: SO looking forward to HARI RAYA....

i love weekends

2008-09-11T19:41:00.003+08:00

okay today's lesson was draggy for me...tak bole angkat beb...bebual peh bebual byk songel...argh so frustrating...think by yr 3...i'll have white hair...now oso have ! hahaha...dah tua sak...nvm still young at heart kaper !!! im so looking forward to tmr ! u know why...gonna go my bro's camp...1st Battalion Singapore Guards....bole wash2 the eyes kan !! hahaha...his GUARDS ADVANCED COURSE GRADUATION PARADE...gonna take pics...upload soon ya :)

mum,qistina & bro during his POP

mum's gonna turn 50 on her bday which is on 29 sept...getting old uh...quite fast...n me, her eldest daughter...thought she'll always remain but as yrs pass growing older...well what shld i do for her bday huh...still not sure...maybe a bday kek...budget2 la skit bab bdk skola la kan...hehe

aniway, 7yrs anniversary end of this yr...still dunno what shld i do n get for him...tight budget...hopefully can work many2 & get his gift...

P/S: No matter how hard I try to forget him, he'll always appear bringing all those memories back...

a new fresh start

2008-09-03T11:19:00.003+08:00

well, today's the first day in school...okay for me...laughters were still there...the faci was ok...everyting was ok for the first day...wat else can i say rite ?! hehe...think my tummy's a bit slimmer now...maybe because of fasting...ceh ceh ceh :P

looking forward to new me and also 1st oct...haha...growth dividend coming in $$$$$ i think i wanna go shopping when have lots of money...been soo long since i last went shopping...when i wanna work,there's no work for me...quite sad though...hoping for a new miracle this sept :)

p/s: Selamat Berpuasa....n BF i wan a new hp :P

2008-08-29T22:46:00.008+08:00

went shopping wif my aunt & uncle at Harvey Norman, West Mall...he wanted to buy a digicam so i recommend him CANON but since he's using it for work...he bought OLYMPUS the shockproof & waterproof...i feel in love with CANON DIGITAL IXUS 860 IS...u wanna know why...coz the screen is wide...have the satisfaction in viewing ur pictures...can see the pimples n everything u know(hahaha)..so i hope maybe someone can buy it for me ? pretty please !!! maybe for my bday nxt yr ? hahaha...so old alreadi :P

P/S: BF,FADHIL ISKANDAR BIN HARON, WILL YOU BE A GOOD BF TO BUY THIS DIGICAM FOR ME? I WILL TREASURE U & SAYANG U MANY2 !! muacks...

if i never see ur face again...

2008-08-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

bad wk for me...met with nurul jus now...had some lepaks session wif her...since she's been wanting to lepak wif me...hahaha...

well, the story goes like this...this past whole wk we haven't really been communicating...sms so what ! jus the same thing...what u doing...and he's been working from tues till today...what the hell happen to us ya !!!

i hate you...thurs was hoping to meet him...sms & call him several times...no reply...then call again at 7 plus....saying he's been waiting for my SMS to go out...and he's WORKING !! on the spot, i hang up the call...i feel like killing & cursing him...dun u have to initiative to CALL ME !!! so irritating !! he even got the cheek to say dun get angry...doesn't he even understand what i mean...YOU DUN EVEN WANT TO TALK TO ME...i wished we were like other couples...
well, doesn't matter aniway the fcking yrs we been together...there's no feeling of LOVE anymore...

I TELL U WHAT...U CAN JUST MARRY YOUR WORKPLACE !!

p/s i hate you...

you'll always be my baby

2008-08-12T23:30:00.003+08:00

well...i've been hearing this song 'you'll always be my baby' thousands of times...cant get this song out of my mind...im happy that you've always been there for me...and words cannot describe my feelings towards you no matter how nasty i am to you...

I love you...as the years goes by....

p/s: dear bf....i wan this ring( probably HEARTS ON FIRE) for our wedding okay ! i love you...

20yrs & still growing strong...

2008-07-23T13:28:00.005+08:00

bought new paper today...was impressed with TonY Leung & Carina Lau's 20yrs of courtship and now their wedding which cost a whopping $7 million...plus a 12 carat Cartier ring cost $5 million...athough in their 40lus of age, both of them look young and still beautiful,handsome as ever...i wish them a blisful marriage though i don't know them well...love Carina's wedding gown and deeply in love with it !

the pic taken shows the gorgeous-ness in Carina...how beautiful and marvellous looking she is !

So to all of you deeply & crazy in love, the years and days you've been thru together makes it worth while...

believe in yourself & the other part of you...

Kathy's Engagement

2008-07-12T20:54:00.014+08:00

OMG...the moment i step into the room...there i saw a beautiful, gorgeous bride...cant believe my cousin's getting engaged...on her 21st bday itself...imagine how i look like next time ya...hehehe...anyway congratulations cuzzy ! the pics will tell ya how stunning she is....

Lastly, my 'crazy" parents...

Dear BF, I just cant wait for our turn....

movie marathon...

2008-06-30T21:33:00.004+08:00

watched YOU DON'T MESS WITH THE ZOHAN wif kevin jus now...funny & lame movie..their accent very funny...adam sandler never fails to make people laugh...ended nearly 2...walked the entire VIVO till our legs and feets hurt....gonna catch up a movie wif bf later around 5 at Lot 1 near my place...WANTED was a cool movie...wif all the shootings and actions...ANGELINA JOLIE's hot man ! love her lips and eyes...she has a hot body and i love those tatoos on her !those flirtatious and seducing eyes...BRAD's happy to have her ! well so much of my movie marathon for today...

I'LL ALWAYS HAVE YOU...

22nd Birthday

2008-06-28T21:08:00.005+08:00

well, had lots of wishes for my 22nd bday...thanx peeps ! friends,family and loved ones too...cant believe im 22 now...start off with birthday celebration...still went to school...went out with bf after school...decided to buy GUESS handbag/slingbag...thanx bf...they are having 20% discount...crowded wif pple at PS...well GSS yeah...after shopping went for dinner at swensens...got a complimentary firehouse desert...the staff actually sang for me bday song...quite paiseh u know...anyway, he was a friend of bf's bro...after tat, 8 plus head to meet Gerene, dayah and nurul at bugis...walk here and there...finally reach home at 12...

Happy 22nd Bday to me...may i be gorgeous always...haha

6 more days...

2008-06-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

6 more days to my 22nd b'day...cant believe that im getting younger as times goes by...haha...reali cant wait for nxt fri...wanna spend time wif BF...hopefully i wont get mad...tat is control my temper for once...and be a goody gf...haha...im thankful that he's always been by my side for what ever shitty things i've done to him...he's great but can be sucky ! hahaha...I'm so in love wif you...cant wait for us to settle down...but think gonna be 6yrs from now onwards...i wanna make this relationship a truthful one...i can't wait for you to be mine forever !!

I'M truly,madly,deeply in love with you.....

The Incredible Hulk

2008-06-17T20:03:00.005+08:00

today watched THE INCREDIBLE HULK with BF...there's this part which if quite funny though...too excited he'll change into a HULK...so too bad he didn't have the chance wif his gf...hehehe...i find the HULK cute ! can be very touchy wif his eyes when he's cool down...

so i CHANGE again my TP Date...which im quite relief about it...i have to make sure im positive about it...n never change my mind again...if not, i'll slap myself...haha...

btw, bday's comin...wat do u wanna give me? :P

DEAR GOD, I PRAY THAT I'LL SUCCESS IN WHATEVER I DO...HAVE A POSITIVE MINDSET & STAY HAPPY !

Pics...

2008-06-09T22:06:00.006+08:00

as promised...uploading some random pics from cousin's engagement !
hope u guys enjoy !! i sure enjoyed myself ! haha :)

Cousin with gifts to girl's side...

The RING

Aunt & Cousin posing with the Ring

me posing with flower ! haha...

cousins !

us with his fiancee...

their cake...lovely !!

EnGagement...

2008-06-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

tis wk been bz wif school though it's 2wks break...heavily involved with YOUNG GEMS...had fun & of coz lots of laughter sia...crazy pple i met & had time wif...cool pple...though we took charge of sec school students...surely met new pple there in DCRSM...and super duper lots !
so today my cousin got engaged...everyone was in a happy mood...joy & laughter was there...took lots of pics which i will upload sooner or later...when my aunt put on the ring for the daughter-in-law to be...the bride cried...so touching...his sis(groom's sis) passed the bouqet of flowers he bought for her...well...today was another day for us...adding an additional new family member to our big family...next up...another cousin's engagement on 12july which is also her 21st birthday !

Happy Family...

start of holidays...

2008-05-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

today started work from 9am and ended at 1 coz gonna catch a movie with my aunt,relative n my sis...PRINCE CASPIAN: THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA...well, dont think the movie was tat good however, the prince kind of cute :P ...part 1 was better...had funny parts inside the movie...well, tis wk had been catching up wif movies...nxt movie: KUNGFU PANDA...cute & funny panda...cant wait to watch it...maybe wif my 2 small cousins...they love it when i ask them out coz...they simply cant go out on their own...their dad say...too young to go out...haha !

Picturing you inside my heart...

Indiana Jones..

2008-05-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

accompanied bf to the polyclinic...had sore eyes for 1wk...given another 2 days mc..poor thing...been 1wk too since we last met...quite an awful sight...wore shades to avoid looking into his eyes...hahaha...waited for him to change before proceeding to watch movie : INDIANA JONES & THE KINGDOM OF CRYSTAL SKULL...it was very hilarious man...i laughed non-stop...movie was abt 2hrs...then had our romantic sort of dinner at Delifrance...been long since we had peaceful & quiet environment between us...

I won't go home without you...

Holidays...

2008-05-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

2 more days to holidays...2wks break from all hassle of waking up early :)
went out shopping wif mum...informed me abt going for 1 day trip to KL on 28 june...which is after my bday..hehe...suddenly she asked "ASK YOUR BF ALONG !!!!" i was like shocked and i replied back "FOR WHAT !" so we continue our journey to mit up my relative...mum complained to her that I DO NOT ALLOW HER TO ASK MY BF ALONG FOR THE TRIP...but my relative said LET HER GET CLOSE TO HIM LA...aiyoh...i've told him...i was sort of surprised wif my mum's reactions though...probably she's accepting him la..hahaha...SON-IN-LAW TO BE....
kind of excited for our HOLIDAY together... ;P

No Smile Is More Beautiful Then One That Has Struggled Through The Tears

DrIvInG

2008-05-14T16:38:00.002+08:00

jus got back from car practical...left like 2mths plus to my TP which i have to really buck up...argh so stress...waiting for pay so i can work hard towards my driving skills....have to make it through no matter what happens...think clubbing which i have plan have to be put to hold & concentrate more on my driving licence...dad's gonna kill me if he knows i spent the money he gave to me back then...he's already plan to buy a car (HONDA FIT) red as in the picture...so i pray hard that everything will be smooth ahead for me...amin :)

Baby, But you never had a girl look so fly like me.......

3 more weeks

2008-05-04T23:08:00.002+08:00

3 more weeks & then 2 wks break ! i seriously cant wait...i wanna let all out n let all loose...im stress but i jus dunno why...why do i think negatively when things turn out to be positive...talking abt relationship...i dunno wats wrong or whats happening...trying my best to figure out whats wrong...shld i always blame him...for goodness sake why...seems like im the one wif problems...arghh...jus let me have peace :)
been hearing Bye Bye By Mariah Carey...im loving the song...so much...

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye....

honeymoon

2008-04-29T23:45:00.003+08:00

yeah today skipped school..haha...so will be on honeymoon till thursday...friday back to school but UT after school...crap rite ! today spend more than 12hrs outside...went town think ard 10 plus...walk here & there till we(me,pearlyn & kevin) were tired & had lunch before proceeding to watch THE FORBIDDEN KINGDOM at 12.40 at LIDO...laugh,laugh...good kungfu skills though...then after tat, walk here & there till we we too tired & they had dinner before we went HAAGEN DAZS...im craving for ice-cream since it was a hOOOTTTT weather ! 6 plus went off & met tat bf & his frend...sort of double date..PIZZA HUT for dinner...till 9 plus...then his friend send us back with his big monster TRAILER...crazy driver...so scared with his driving skills...but reached home sweet home ard 10plus :)

Crying is not a sign of weakness, but it's a sign of truth LOVE...

bleeding heart...

2008-04-28T19:50:00.005+08:00

u know what i feel...i feel like stabbing u wif a knife...chop ur body into pieces & feed to the crocodiles...yeah...call me what u want..i'll be ur worst nightmare & ur fcuking GF !! jus tell me wat u want...let all ur sorrows drown wif me...jus talk to me & let me feel there's love between us again...jus confide in me...there's nothing wrong...or maybe it's just my emotions...till then i'll be there jus call out my name...if i'll be there when u needed me the most

Love doesn't suck, its the absence of it that drives us crazy

a broken heart...

2008-04-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

i suddenly realise that we had no time for each other...our relationship was bland...never used to be like ever before...jus so sad...we met...went home & said goodbye to each other...i didn't feel any love in tat...where's the happiness and colours gone from us? wkends were never for us...both working...if not, he's always working...i dont feel anything to celebrate for my bday...dont know where i was heading and us heading to...goodbye love

L.o.V.e is about tears & goodbye...

finally...

2008-04-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

after 2 wks dun need to come to work...im back to work today...from 9 to 6...but we slack & talked a lot..a lot of stories and so many things happen at work...received my pay (FINALLY) so went to buy things jus now...budget my shopping limits since i had so many things to pay..hahaha...however, im happy coz at least i got to buy something... :P
now, i cant wait for my nxt school holidays...31st may to 15 june...hahaha...but still have PP which deadline is 7 may...
talking abt holidays...im goin clubbing again !!! yeah....wohooooooooooooo

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop...

F.R.I.D.A.Y

2008-04-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

woa...today's friday & so many things happen....firstly, my bro has gone for his NS 10.30 am at bedok camp...gd luck...so he passed me his belongings...PSP & IPOD...so im still thinking wat to do wif them...so in the evening/nite ard 8 plus....my aunts,uncles,my parents & grandma headed to my cousin's gf or FIANCEe to be house to ask for her hand in marriage...wow...this year is like so bz for my family...so maybe 2-3 yrs down the road...i'll be busy attending to these marriages...my elder cousin bro wedding & cousin wedding (girl)...headache rite...but lucky i think i've graduated from poly & working..even grow older...save up $$$$ for mine i GUESS ?! hahahaha...funnnyyyy

"Our love is like a blossoming flower within our hearts, always growing, with an endless passion"

Back to school

2008-04-07T20:21:00.002+08:00

today's the first day of school & to be exact...2nd yr ! Wow...cant be that time flies so fast...I hope I can graduate from poly...new classmates & new environment...can say that my class...the people in there...very well spoken & good in presentations...today was not a good day for me as I was sleepy & tired..so didnt talk much...except to my team members...so next holidays will be at the end of may till 15 june...so right now, have to pay attention in class & work extremely hard !

I rather have u than someone else...

Old Love

2008-04-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

still awake this hr...dont know wat to do...someone told me he still loves me...but too bad i cant realli accept u...its too hard for me to accept u...if only memories could be gone forever...Both of you guys have been trying to steal my heart but I have loved u once but never again coz I have the one tat has always been there for me...for better or worst...ouh bullshit !! like wedding vows..but then...i'll stay strong for Him...

I love you Fadhil Iskandar no matter what...

Good Friday

2008-03-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

yeah...im so happy...let me tell u a story...woke up early to accompany this bf of mine to register for his higher nitec at ITE DOVER but then...we took the wrong bus & ended up til harbourfront...funny rite...hahahaha....so we alighted like a lost tourist...so I the genius one...looked at the bus directory...and ta dah..saw 963 direction opp ITE DOVER...clever rite...except this good for nothin bf who only nagssssssssssssssssss at me....so we went down...register & all so we headed back to CCK...we went to the library...nowadays...i've been there occasionally to borrow books ! bookworm!???

so ard 3 plus...he sent me an SMS...I GOT INTO POLY !!! surprising uh...we had a fun trip to ITE DOVER but ended up...he got POLY...im so happy for him...there's still sunshine for the both of us :) well, he got DIPLOMA IN MANUFACTURING ENGINEERING
my sis told mum...so she said...wa...can become ENGINEER ! im so happy !!!! but wait...he still has a loong way to go...gd luck :)

Loving you would be the best thing on my mind...